25 October
21 years ago my life changed forever. Although I am grateful for how God has looked after me since, has given me a lovely family of my own, provided me with a job that I enjoy (most days), given me lots of lovely friends and so on, I still don't get why such things happen. I still miss my brother and I still start shaking when I see fire a fighters truck parked anywhere near my house.
I also worry about expressing my feelings. Too many people have the definite solution to life and are happy to tell you how you should deal with stuff or how you should be strong and get over things. I personally think there are some things you never get over but that make you just the way you are. They also give you a ground for empathy and kindness - understanding someone else's pain is not always straight forward.
There you go, I've said it. I can now live today like any other day, striving to do good and loving those around me. Whatever else happens, I know I have a hope.
Xxx
Photogenic
Here is the photo of our babe, can't see the important bits, but trust me, we saw them...
20 week scan... It's a boy!!!
We had our 20 week scan (although I am still 19 weeks) on Friday and it all went well. We could see baby's developing normally and everything is ok.
He is a bit of an exhibitionist and on the first shoot he made it clear that he wanted us to know he's a boy! It was very funny cos we had said to the sonographer that we would only want to know if it was blatantly obvious and so it seems babe understood and posed for us!
I will be posting a general piccie of baby when P's had a chance to scan it.
Kisses!
15 weeks
it's growing!! I have started to show, so here are a few piccies for u to enjoy...
13 weeks 5 days
It has been a while since the last post, but not much has happened since... I have been feeling better the last couple of weeks, less nauseous and just as tired, but with a bit more energy.
I had to tell everyone at work this week as they were starting to get suspicious of my arriving late in the mornings so now everyone knows hopefully they will be a bit more understanding.
Still no news on the house, things seem to be going well, had survey done and now we are awaiting news from the morgage company... Advisor seemed to think we could be completing before Christmas! That's only 5 weeks away! So we might be moving during the holidays which would be just ideal...
I got to meet Princess Alexandra (the Queen's cousin) last week and Prince Charles this week! They came to work for one reason or another and it was very exciting. I got very nervous near the time but they were very relaxed and friendly so that made it a lot easier. Now I'd like to meet my country's royals!
P got me a laptop as a surprise and to start with I wasn't sure whether to say thank you or hit him, but he promised it wasn't expensive and he'd been saving up for it, so in the end I forgave him and said thank you... Surprises are strange things aren't they! One never knows how to react!
I'm looking forward to Christmas, mostly to get to rest and be away from work... This week it's been quite hard going so it will be nice to not have to get up early for a few days in a row.
Next scan - 20 weeks - on 6 January, can't wait for that one, should be a lot more exciting than the first one when Bernard couldn't even be bothered to move and it was over in 5 mins...
That's all for now I think.
xxx
First photograph
Here is the first photograph of our baby... at 10 weeks old!
